It is easier to fly commercial as a civilian into a combat zone. Actually deploying with the Military brings a whole new light to mass travel. I wonder at moments is this so difficult because there are 225 of us traveling together or is it that the Army makes it difficult to wear us down so all you want to do is to get where you are going no matter what awaits you.
The hurry up and wait attitude along with the endless lines exhausts you to the point of mindlessness. I who cannot sleep on an airplane slept most of the 20 plus hours of flying time. At one point I wondered if our food was drugged or sleeping gas was being pumped in over us to calm our fears and sleep away the journey like astronauts flying to Mars.
During the times when the plane was being refueled there were moments of sullenness. I looked at young soldiers faces and wanted to confront their fears. After all I was okay, I had been on the ground, seen it and now I was going back for more.
But I didn’t. I let them wallow, hoping it will be better for them to go through their feelings and experience it all, the good, the ugly and the horrific.